explanation: so, i miss blogging. and i haven’t blogged in forever! however, i have spent the last few months doing some serious thinking–i have so much more to say! but this was a small excerpt from my journaling this morning, the shortest way to explain the last few years and where i am right now.

sometimes, the moments before dusk are incredibly misleading.
my sunset–over three years ago–was incredibly misleading, i thought it was the dawn.
i thought it was the dawn.
the sunset was blindingly beautiful. i stood on top of a mountain in a sea of blazing color, vibrant light, and i thought i was seeing the sunrise.

the dark hit me like a brick. it knocked me off of my feet and left me disoriented and lost. and i spent years wandering through the darkness, letting it steal my peace.
this was a horrible mistake, and one i freely admit. i allowed the darkness to steal my peace. i allowed the darkness to steal my joy.

now, i freely stand in the first few hints of the sunrise, desperately seeking a light in the darkness. begging to finally see the light.

it has been dark for far too long.